If I had to sum up 2009 in one word, I think I would have to choose unpredictable. Never in a million years would I have imagined that this year would turn out the way that it has, ever. Seriously.
I'd have to say that this year has been one of the best, yet also one of the most difficult years for me. This summer was incredible and was spent with amazing friends whom I love dearly. Some great memories were definitely made. Lets see, In January of this year when I wrote my new years resolution, goals, plans and ambitions, I definitely didn't see my family packing up and leaving by October. I didn't see Ben and I getting back together after being seperated for 3 and a 1/2 years and I didn't imagine that I would make the decision to stay in Pensacola without my family. There has been a massive turn of events and my plans and goals were altered quite a bit but I honestly wouldn't have it any other way.
To say that I've learned alot with these last 12 months would be a mere understatement. I've learned, changed and grown a ton and I can definitely feel it. I feel like I have a more vast perspective on things rather than the pinhole perspective that I possessed before. It's amazing how being on your own away from your nest ie family will inflict changes and affect you so much. Has it been hard? Most definitely. I miss them every single day and I miss my home, pets, familiarity etc. However, I'm proud to say that I am capable of being on my own. Independance has taken on a whole new meaning. I made a somewhat selfish decision to stay here and in doing so , am discovering so much more about myself and what I want and need. I've learned to love, let go, move on, glean from each and every situation, trust and give. It's beautiful, this life. So full of unexpected turns and bumps, yet never dull.
I'm 2 days away from bidding farewell to my dear friend, Beth. She's moving to Atlanta. Our friendship has been strengthened this year. I met her at the end of 2008 and now feel as though I've known her my entire life. Pretty much every memory this year involves her. I can't even fathom her not being apart of my every day life. Life is certainly full of greetings and partings.
On to 2010. What to expect? I honestly have absolutely no idea. I'm excited though and maybe a little anxious. I pray that this year would be filled with God's grace and direction. I hope that I continue learning, striving and growing. I desire to be used to influence another and I hope that I become more selfless and make helping and loving others a priority.
Tonight I will be counting down to the new year with all of my best friends in downtown Pensacola for the annual Pensacola Pelican Drop. Here is my post from all the fun that we had last year. I'm looking forward to it!
May this year be beautiful in every aspect, even in the challenges that it may bring.