Friday, April 23, 2010

fear.

My mind is on overload these days.

I feel strange. Mainly due in part to some out of the blue dreams and statements said to and/or about me that others have dreamt and/or said. Definitely has me on edge.

Kinda scared to move.


Fear suffocates. Kills joy. Steals peace. Consumes minds.

I will not be it's victim.




Truth be told- I live alone.

In all actuality, I do not mind this. I quite like having my place to myself. It's nice. However, I do get scared at night. (Childlike I know) I simply can't help it. I love living alone but I do not like being alone at night time. I actually hate it.

So, over the course of just two weeks- numerous people and random people have had dreams about me that have caused them to urge me to "take caution".

Ummm, ok?

I usually do not give much thought to all of this during the course of my day but at night "what if"s" begin to circulate in my mind and I end up totally freaking myself out.

I also have never been so scared to get into my car to drive somewhere.

I had a dream about myself, too. It was extremely unpleasant.

Walking into work the next morning to your boss saying "Amber, you have no idea how glad I am to see you this morning! I almost called you at 3am to check on you because I had a terrible dream and I wanted to make sure you were okay." doesn't necessarily help either.

I'm not really sure what all of these dreams and cautions mean but I'm being extra careful. Maybe even to a fault.

Praying for peace and a sound mind.

I don't deal well with fear. At all.

"So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."
Isiaiah 41:10

"For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind."
2 Timothy 1:7

6 comments:

Jessica said...

I'm praying for peace for you. I know all too well how crippling fear can be. Don't let it take over.

Shanny said...

Oh Amber, I hope it doesn't mean anything but just in case I will be praying for you to be perfectly fine and for you to feel more secured. Living in fear is just too much to deal with everyday. You are loved by so many people and by God and that will surely keep you safe ((hugs))

Crazy Shenanigans said...

Don't worry about people's dreams. I'm sure you're going to be fine at night!

OceanDreams said...

Hang in there love, I really admire you for living on your own. I am actually considering doing it, and I too am afraid of fear and being alone at my own place. But right now the roommates I am with is not a healthy situation, so we will see what i decide. I pray that you find a peace of mind and dwell on things that are lovely and true. XO.

alyssa said...

fear 4sho comes from the devil. i pray these fears go away!!

Cole said...

When I was a kid I was terrified to be alone at night. So I memorized Psalm 27 and would say it to myself whenever I would get in those moments and I could feel instant peace. Amazing how powerful the word of God is.