Thursday, January 14, 2010

Ben is great :) Beth is gone :'(

Since I've happened to somehow find a minute where the phone is not incessently ringing and I'm actually somewhat caught up on today's work, I figured I'd take a moment to update this thing.

Life is good. Amazing, actually. I'm so blessed and every day I am amazed at how much God has given me. I don't deserve it. Any of it. I am so grateful, though and I am doing my absolute best not to take any of these precious minutes, hours, days and weeks for granted. I'm learning so much.

I'm learning how to let someone take care of me. I've always had a problem in this area of my life. I prefer to be independant. I like to prove that I am fully capable of doing things on my own- financially, emotionally and practically. Believe it or not, I have quite a bit of stubbornness ingrained in me and I tend to allow it to dictate my actons. Not always a good thing.

Having Ben back in my life has been such a blessing in so many aspects. I know I've said this an inumerable amount of times but he really does treat me perfectly. I have never in my life had anyone treat me with so much respect, kindness, patience, tenderness etc. It really is mind blowing to me. However, I have a problem with allowing him to "take care" of me. I know he does it because he desires to. So sweet. I don't want to be that "needy" girlfriend though. Haha. I am perfectly capable of paying for my own gas but he often insists that he pay for it. Little things like that. So sweet. I'm learning to ignore that "stubborn, independant, I can't do it myself" attitude because I know that it brings him joy and it really does make me so happy as well.

Things between us are great. We're growing closer and learning more about each other even after all these years. There is still so much to discover and learn. I love it. We've talked a lot about things we wish to change in ourselves and I can see us making strides toward improvement. It's so encouraging to see how far we've both come. I only hope that we become even more in tune with what God wants for both of our lives, individually and together.

My dearest friend, Beth moved to Atlanta last week. My heart has been heavy at the fact that we will not be apart of each other's everyday lives anymore. She has been a huge part of my life for the past year and I thank God for allowing me to know her. She has got to be one of the most beautiful, genuine and kind hearted souls I know. I know in my heart that we will always be friends. There is absolutely no doubt in my mind about that.

In all of his thoughtfulness, Ben surprised me with a picture frame filled with pictures of Beth and I. He was with me as I cried the night she left and he thought to do this soon after. He's SO sweet!

The frame- LOVE it!

Beth and I last summer.

One of our infamous picture days.

Halloween 2009- She was the old man from UP and I was a black-eyed pea.

The day my family moved. Needless to say, we were emotional wrecks.

Beth, Alex and I. Their gorgeousness sickens me ;)

I am so blessed with so many amazingly wonderful people in my life. I am thankful that God has allowed me to know some of the most wonderful and beautiful people on this planet.

Hope you're all having a splendid week!


Shanny said...

Sorry Beth is going to be far away from you, but your friendship is strong so it will survive. Missing her is the tough part :-/ luckily you have Ben to keep you a bit occupied. I say let him pamper you and take care of you, you do deserve it =)

Annie said...

i'm glad you still have ben!! it is so hard to deal with friends being so far away.
i love all the photos!
all you ladies are beautiful :)
hope you are having a great day sweetpea!!

Anonymous said...

Hi!! I'm glad to hear you are doing well!! I took a long hiatus from blogging, but I'm back now, and I was eager to stop by your blog and see how you were doing. I'm sorry Beth has moved away, but I know you will stay great friends. You now have a reason to go on a vacation :)

I'm glad to hear that you have a great realtionship with what sounds like a wonderful man! He seems so loving, kind and caring. I too have a hard time allowing others to help me, but how thoughtful of him to care for you in the way he does ... and the picture frame?! Nothing could be sweeter ;)

Come by my new blog soon! I'd love to hear from you!!


bethtaylor said...

Amber Collins!! You have left me in tears, my wonderful and thoughtful friend. I miss you terribly, but can NOT wait to see what this year holds for the both of us! Good thing we just met last year, because this still means we have a beautiful friendship to live out for the rest of our lives. I could never thank you enough for all you've done for me.

Crazy Shenanigans said...

Aw, he sounds like such a sweet person. I'm sure you'll see your friend Beth again soon!

OceanDreams said...

Aww, so glad that you have such a great friend near and dear to your heart! Even though she will be far away she is near in your heart and I am sure you two can visit and have long chats. That is what I do with my best friend since she is only an hour away, but she is married so I don't get to see her as often. :( Anyway...cute pics here too and that was thoughtful of Ben too to give you that gift.

a snap shot of my life. said...

Loved it! :) I think you can fix this by just moving to charlotte that way you can go see beth anytime you want! Love you :)