Life is good. Amazing, actually. I'm so blessed and every day I am amazed at how much God has given me. I don't deserve it. Any of it. I am so grateful, though and I am doing my absolute best not to take any of these precious minutes, hours, days and weeks for granted. I'm learning so much.
I'm learning how to let someone take care of me. I've always had a problem in this area of my life. I prefer to be independant. I like to prove that I am fully capable of doing things on my own- financially, emotionally and practically. Believe it or not, I have quite a bit of stubbornness ingrained in me and I tend to allow it to dictate my actons. Not always a good thing.
Having Ben back in my life has been such a blessing in so many aspects. I know I've said this an inumerable amount of times but he really does treat me perfectly. I have never in my life had anyone treat me with so much respect, kindness, patience, tenderness etc. It really is mind blowing to me. However, I have a problem with allowing him to "take care" of me. I know he does it because he desires to. So sweet. I don't want to be that "needy" girlfriend though. Haha. I am perfectly capable of paying for my own gas but he often insists that he pay for it. Little things like that. So sweet. I'm learning to ignore that "stubborn, independant, I can't do it myself" attitude because I know that it brings him joy and it really does make me so happy as well.
Things between us are great. We're growing closer and learning more about each other even after all these years. There is still so much to discover and learn. I love it. We've talked a lot about things we wish to change in ourselves and I can see us making strides toward improvement. It's so encouraging to see how far we've both come. I only hope that we become even more in tune with what God wants for both of our lives, individually and together.
My dearest friend, Beth moved to Atlanta last week. My heart has been heavy at the fact that we will not be apart of each other's everyday lives anymore. She has been a huge part of my life for the past year and I thank God for allowing me to know her. She has got to be one of the most beautiful, genuine and kind hearted souls I know. I know in my heart that we will always be friends. There is absolutely no doubt in my mind about that.
In all of his thoughtfulness, Ben surprised me with a picture frame filled with pictures of Beth and I. He was with me as I cried the night she left and he thought to do this soon after. He's SO sweet!
The frame- LOVE it!
Beth and I last summer.
One of our infamous picture days.
Halloween 2009- She was the old man from UP and I was a black-eyed pea.