Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Wow.

What an absolutely beautiful day!

I woke up promptly at 6:00 am this morning and it was almost like one of those Disney movie scenes where the Princess wakes up with the sun beaming through the windows, birds chirping and she springs up and bursts into song and dance!

Okay, maybe not quite like that but you get my drift. I just woke up in an unbelievably great mood for some reason. I really have no idea why. I didn't win the lottery, I really don't have anything at all to look forward to, there are no "prospects" in my life (haha, I know what you're thinking!), and to be perfectly honest with you the last couple of weeks have sucked royally! So, I don't know what this giddy, happy, excited and anxious feeling is attributed to. It makes absolutely no sense whatsoever. I won't lie though, I am digging it!

I have been a pretty gloomy person lately due to some family circumstances, the route that my life is taking, the fact that I feel so far away from God when I used to be so in tune with His voice and all the doubt and confusion that has been residing within me. I have slept more in the past couple of weeks than a bear in hibernation, I'm sure of it! I've had no motivation and I've been a complete recluse. Although it has been somewhat refreshing to be alone and do what I please in my own timing, it can be extremely lonely. I don't have a "group" of friends really. I have a select few and I rarely see them due to our schedules- one is in a serious relationship, one is married and pregnant and well you get the picture. I'm not one to impose at all.

I'm not meaning to sound like a "damsel in distress" because today I feel phenominal! I'm just kind of laying out a picture of what my life has been like recently and why it makes absolutely no sense for me to be feeling this way. Whatever the case, I feel great, fresh and completely content today. I hope this feeling remains and I hope that I feel this way for a reason. Maybe God is restoring my joy and life and maybe this is just a reminder of how much better life is when I am happy! The sun shines brighter, the sky seems bluer and I just feel like an altogether better person!

Craziest thing! My prego friend (Katie) sent me a text that read: "How do you feel today?"
I responded: "Pretty dang good! You?"
She sent me a text that said: "Lol don't think I'm crazy but I woke up with such a good feeling like something amazing is going to happen. I don't know what it is but I've never had such a good feeling. So I thought maybe you felt it too haha, because it feels like it's from God."

Umm, yeah I was a little freaked out, not gonna lie. You have to understand, we are like two of the most UNsupersticious people ever! That is one reason why I am not attending a church right now. I am so tired of hype, emotionlism, supersticion and people messing with your mind and emotions. I love to feel God but I am very convinced that people overplay it and that is what I like to call blashphemy. I am not judging or criticizing anyone. I am just being honest. I've seen a lot of that stuff and it makes my stomach turn. No fake-ness for me, thank you!

So, maybe it is God that we both woke up feeling this way! It could very well be. It could also be the fact that today is one of the most beautiful days ever or of course a combo of both! =)

"Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.
Do not cast me from your presence or take your Holy Spirit from me.
Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me."

-Psalm 51:10-12

Have a beautiful, wonderful and amazing day!!
Much love,
Amber =)

2 comments:

aMbErDeNaE said...

I love this! Haha, the reference to Disney Princesses...and I knew this was a good read! It's amazing how much you and I write alike! No worries, "prospects" will come soon! Still love love love reading your blog! :) Hope all is well!!!

xoxo a

Karen said...

I know those days! I don't have them often enough. Most of the time it's a matter of dragging myself out of bed.

Try not to lose all of your Faith!

Thanks for reading and commenting on my blog, I'm definitely putting you on my Google Reader list! :)