Monday, June 29, 2009

My Beloved.

"I hear the voice, the voice of the one I love. He's calling my name..."

Jesus, beckon me. Summon me. I'm so unfulfilled by the fading desires and temptations that the world has to offer me. They leave me feeling more empty and lifeless, yet these fleeting desires have the ultimate power of wooing me and distracting me away from you. Help me keep my eyes fixed on you. My life is not my own. I want to make decisions that are in my best interest and that keep me untainted by these ever increasing worldly cravings.

My flesh and my heart may fail, but you are my strength forever. I am human. I know that I struggle with sinful desires but I long to keep myself pure from everything that hinders you and your anointing in my life. Sure, I fall and screw up. It's inevitable. Please help me realize that my rise is greater than my fall, my determintation is stronger than my hestitation, my resistance is more fulfilling than tempation and your grace is so much more sufficient than my consistent failed attempts.

I see dark, you see lovely. I see ashes, you see beauty.

6 comments:

Morgan said...

Wow Amber, that was beautiful! Did you write that yourself? If so, you are VERY talented!

AmberDenae said...

Yes, Morgan. I did write it myself. If didn't write it, I would be sure to give credit where credit is due ;) Thank you, dear. You're so sweet. :)

Shanny said...

This post is so touching and its written beautifully. It shows how strong you are as a person and how Jesus truly does live in your heart. Big ((hug)) for you, hope your inner struggles don't drive you too crazy.

mrs.leah.maria said...

"Please help me realize that my rise is greater than my fall, my determination is stronger than my hesitation, my resistance is more fulfilling than temptation and your grace is so much more sufficient than my consistent failed attempts." Love.

bethtaylor said...

Amber, your words are so eloquently spoken, my friend. My relation with this prayer it so very parallel.. I could have just never said it that profound. I love you so much. I could never tell you enough!!

alyssa said...

great post!! i need to get caught up on your blog! how have you been!