Friday, June 5, 2009

News to me.

Lots of things are changing...

I kind of feel like I should be more careful about what I share on here as to not look make my family look so fickle.

We're really not.

For those of you who have been following, you know that my family was planning to start a church in our area and no matter how ideal and right it seemed and felt, something kind of crept up on us and completely shattered that dream.

Sigh.

I'm really trying not to be so disappointed but at this point, it's all I can be.

There is some excitement, however regarding the future for my family. It does entail moving and essentially leaving the place and home where we grew up. I hate that more than anything. I'm trying to be excited for them. I really am. I want nothing but success, prosperity and happiness for my Dad. He has worked so hard all of his life for us and he deserves a break of some sort.

Now the big question... What am I going to do?

Honestly, I have absolutely no idea whatsoever what I am going to do. As far as I know right now, I'm staying put in Pensacola, at my job, with my friends, in my hometown. I have no desire to move anytime soon. The mere thought upsets me.

Who knows what could happen between now and then? I could end up anywhere.

The circumstance and situation surrounding and influencing this decision make absolute and perfect sense. It's just not what I wanted. But I guess it's not about what I want, is it?

Decisions. Decisions.

Not fun, my friends.

8 comments:

Andrea said...

Oh, Amber...you will be in my prayers, hon. Decisions like this are never fun. But God is (always) up to sometihng good. Believe that with all your heart :)

yours truly... said...

I'm wearing this bracelet right now...it's fitting for you today...

Delight yourself in the LORD; And He will give you the desires of your heart. Psalm 37:4

You're in my thoughts and prayers sweet girl! Keep your chin up, lots of love and hugs to you sweet girl!

DocE said...

I have been in similar situations that you describe (well, not similar in terms of content, but similar in terms of how they leave me feeling) and it is really icky. It's hard to feel like the rug is pulled out from under you (even when you're ok with it) and that you have to kind of start over and get your head settled... It's uncomfortable, but it's always a place where I've grown a lot and found out more about myself.

That said, here's to you and hoping that things even out quickly and that you have a peaceful weekend.

C said...

Aw, girl. Decisions like this are tough, and I'll be praying for you. Aren't you glad we don't have to go through life alone??

bethtaylor said...

Amber, Amber, Amber. The mere thought of you moving upsets me more than you realize. But please know that I am praying for you and your family and I trust that God will lead you in the right direction no matter what.
I love you so incredibly much, and am beyond thankful for your friendship. You have seriously been such a ginormous blessing in my life.. I can't even describe.

inkOBSESSIONdesigns said...

You are definitely in my thoughts and prayers! :Hugs:

Crazy Shenanigans said...

I'm sure everything will be alright. You'll know the right decision! Just trust that everything is going to work out the way it's suppose to be.

Jessica said...

Aw, hon......I'm sorry.....

Don't worry at all about making your family seem fickle. It doesn't come across that way at all to me. There is nothing fickle or not respectable about seeking God's will on something before taking the plunge and realizing He has something else for you. That, to me, is the furthest thing from fickle.

Whatever happens, and wherever you end up, I know God will bless you and your family abundantly. Keep us posted.