Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Scariest moment of my life. This day is from h*ll.

Today, I experienced my first real panic attack.

Perhaps it had something to do with being "this close" to being kidnapped.

Yeah, scariest moment of my entire life thus far.

Upon taking boxes to a larger mail box in the parking lot parallel to our office (a parking lot that is somewhat desolate), a man sitting in his vehicle began screaming at me and motioning for me to come to his vehicle. Of course it FREAKED (freaked is an understatement) me out and I took off running. The dude then pulled out of his parking spot as if he was going to follow me but I made it to the office by then and didn't see where he had gone. I saw him but did not recognize him. I can't even describe the feeling of fear that gripped me during these few minutes. Something was definitely wrong and he was a SICKO. I could just sense it by the way he was screaming and looking at me. Absolutely insane.

We called the police and an officer came out and I hysterically gave him a report and he stated that this was the SECOND similar report they had gotten today in this vicinity.

Being abducted is my absolute worst nightmare. I can't tell you how much I think about it. We had a friend who was abducted and murdered last year and it ruined me. You can NEVER EVER be too careful.

There are so many psychos out there. The outcome could have been so much worse. Thank you Jesus for swift feet and safety.

....and this day is just progressively going downhill.

Can I just vent for a second?!

I am SO SICK of disgusting, shovenistic, power hungry and demeaning men. We have had so many customers with this attitude and it's really getting tiring. I don't appreciate being cussed out and called a "liar" when I tell you my boss is out on an errand. No sir, I do not lie. My boss is out on an errand!" He then proceeds to SCREAM at me and insists that my boss is out shopping. What the heck?! As if I have the audacity to put up with all of this crap today.

This day sucks and I can't WAIT for it to be OVER!


Jessica said...

Oh, Amber.....sweet Amber......I can't tell you how awful this makes me feel, and how relieved and thankful I am that you're okay! I can't believe that happened to you, and I can't say enough how glad I am that the Lord protected you.

Keep your eyes open, sweet girl, but don't let this cripple you. Fear is one of the enemy's favorite weapons.

OceanDreams said...

Aww, I am so sorry for your hard day love! I hope it gets better soon. I am so glad that you are okay too and that God protected you, but I can understand why that scared you, so glad God protected you. Well at least you can use this situation to let girls know about safely, I know a lot of women need to be more cautious and careful when they feel like they are in wide open spaces where they can be harmed. Once when I was walking from Chipotle to my car I felt a man moving toward me...like you described I knew and felt fear. I started praying and sped up my walk and got in my car and locked my doors and drove away. But I knew his motives were not good, plus there were some people away. I am so sorry about what happened with your friend...
Also, I used to work in a place where I got screamed at dalily - I was a coordinator and got cursed at all of the time. It is really hard to put up with that, I hope people are nicer on the phone to you. Treating people with love and grace is hard when you are truly tested, but I think you are doing just fine. Make sure you rest tonight and take it easy love!

Andrea said...

Oh my gosh, Amber!! I'm soooo glad you're okay. I can't even imagine the fear that grips you in a situation like that. Take care of youself tonight and do what you need to do to wind down.

Morgan said...

Amber, that is so scary! I would have been freaked out also!! I probably would have peed my pants haha! I'm so glad you are ok and ran from that nut!

I can't believe how that guy treated you, do people have any morals or respect? So sorry Amber..big hugs!! :)

Morgan said...

Oh, also..I'm am ~so~ sorry to hear what happened to your friend last year, that must have been horrible to deal with. So sorry Amber!

Lindsey said...

Oh my gosh! You poor thing!! I am so sorry!!

Shanny said...

Oh my God, this is so scary. I'm so sorry but I'm glad that you are okay. I hope they can catch him soon. ((hugs))

alyssa said...

ive been meaning to get to this post! i remember you getting scared from a post on facebook. bless your heart! im glad you ran fast! how scary!

Lucy Pevensie said...

fear is a GREAT motivator - ALWAYS obey it! There's a great book out there called "the Gift of Fear" by Gavin deBecker and you would do well to read it.

And a MISS is still a MISS! Glad you are safe.