Wednesday, October 7, 2009

and thus the process begins...

Packing. I so loathe that word and concept. How in the world am I supposed to cram my life's belongings into boxes for who knows how long to be sent and stowed away with my family until I figure out just what I'll be doing and when and if I'll be moving?

This stresses me out.

I have so much cleaning, organizing, and getting rid of to do in the next few days. Ugh. I am not a fan of all of this.

Packing also makes this whole idea a concrete reality. A reality that I am kind of in denial about. A reality that I don't want to become real yet. Dang it. Can I just freeze the clock and calendar for a bit longer, please?

While new beginnings and fresh starts are always exciting and adventurous, they are also scary as crap. Are you with me? I'm not so sure I'm ready for such a drastic change in my life. Whether it be my ENTIRE family leaving me here or me leaving all that I know here. Either way, it's going to be hard and will take some getting used to.

Change is necessary for growth and maturity, yes. I keep telling myself this. I can't stay in a rut forever.

And I won't be because things are changing....and fast. Too fast.

9 comments:

Leah said...

I know how you feel! I have packed up and moved so many times and it's never fun.

Be encouraged during this time of transition. Things have a way of working in positive, unexpected ways!

Shanny said...

I'm definitely not one that loves change so I feel for you. Hope all this madness goes on as smoothly as possible. And the packing part? all I can say is good luck, not the funnest part.

Crazy Shenanigans said...

I've been there girl, I know how it is to have so much change like that going on. I'm sure you'll get it all done and figured out before you know it.

OceanDreams said...

I hope packing goes well, I know I am the same way with change. It is so hard to adjust and get used to a new living location. But...you will become a stronger person and though it may be hard, God has a plan for you. I moved to CA for college by myself and I didn't know anybody (expect my g-parents) who were about an hour and a half away. Through the years though I have learned to be who I was supposed to be and meet some amazing people. Hope everything goes well for you!

oneheart-twohands said...

I know this has to be such a stressful time for you. I don't like change either, but it's always better in the end. Everything will work out. If you stay where you are you might gain such a growth and sense of independence from this that you will be so thankful for later on. You may also realize you want to be where your family is and you will really love it there and it will be a whole new adventure! Either way, I know it will work out for you. I know it's scary right now, but it's happening for a reason. Whatever the reason is, I know once everything is settled (which might take a while) you will be thankful for whatever it is you gain through this experience. :) I probably missed this, but where are you going to be staying again?

oneheart-twohands said...

Haha...that could be taken in a creepy sort of way! I just mean are you staying with friends, at a new apartment, etc.? Just curious. :) I was just thinking it could be fun to go to a new place and get to decorate it however you want! Just trying to be optimistic here. :) I know this is a stressful time. I don't adjust to change well either.

AmberDenae said...

You're all SO sweet! Thank you for your encouraging words. I know you've all been in a position similar before. I appreciate your advice and encouragement. It means a lot!

One Heart, Two Hands...Haha, I didn't take that in a creepy way AT ALL! You're so funny. I am actually going to be moving in with my best friend and her family (who is more like a second family to me). SUCH a blessing! They have a spare room that they have offered to me. It would certainly be fun to have my own place and all but just not realistic right now when I'm not quite sure where I'll end up. I don't wanna sign a lease and get stuck here if I need to go. So I'll be staying with them just until I figure out where I am going to be. I am thankful that I'll have their support during this difficult transition!

:)

oneheart-twohands said...

That's great that you get to stay with your best friend! I understand completely about not wanting to sign a lease in your situation. Besides, this way you won't have to waste money on rent. :)

Lucy Pevensie said...

Some peeps NEVER throw things out till they're 80... be grateful that you are moving and cleaning out so that you're not looking at this stuff when you're 80 going - WHY DID I hold onto this? :) LOL! Hang in there - this too shall pass!